HaHaHa Yea Right...

I haven’t blogged in a while so I figured that I should get on it. and class on Friday got me thinking. There are a lot of things so far that I knew were in the bible. But I didn’t really know the details of them. Being a “bible thumper” and all, I didn’t realize some of the stories that are in it. and some of the understandings that come with the stories. I mean yes they are stories but there is a deeper meaning of them. One that is to not be taken lightly. I like to call these meaning onion meanings. There is always a layer upon layer of meanings.

Like for example the story of Cain and Abel. We all know what happens, but do we know why? Or how come, or the feelings that were involved with it? no not really. I love the part well I don’t love it, but it has made me think. The Lord asks Cain where his brother is. And Cain being a hormonal boy says well why do I care where he is, I’m not his baby sitter. Ha! Its great to see someone almost defending themselves to God. Cause God does a great job on calling people out on their shit. And here Cain is giving God a taste of his own medicine. By talking back to him. God the creator of the universe and everything that is good (and bad) we know, and he is being talked back to by a 17 year old boy. Well I don’t know if he was 17 but doesn’t that sound like a 17 year old boy characteristic? Talking back to the higher authority. When ever a little kid talked back to me I would be like boy don’t ever let me hear that from you again. And this is my favorite… if they stuck their tongue out at me I would say, if I see that again, its mine. Hahaha. Here I am, a higher authority and I’m talking down to this little kid. So just like me saying to this little kid, God says to Cain, well you know what? I can play this game too. You know the saying don’t hate the player, hate the game? Well this little game that I think God and Cain have going on is a nasty little game. God is like fine, be that way. well then seeing you killed your brother for whatever reason I am going to make your life literally a living hell. I’m going to make you wander the world forever, and no one can touch you. And its almost like Cain has this attitude of yea right.. you wanna bet? Its like no one can get the glory of killing you. Cause I said so. Haha love it, cause I said so. Also God puts a mark on him, like having a scarlet letter, but in these days a scarlet letter didn’t mean anything. Before the Lord punishes Cain with this whole wandering thing, Cain plays the oh pitiful me card. But does he really feel bad? yea I didn’t think so either. I mean if he really loved his brother he wouldn’t of killed him. but that didn’t happen. he was kind of a snob. But that’s ok. Boys at this age are.

I just think this story is kind of funny to poke fun at. And to think about on literal sense. I hear the story all the time. the Cain kills Abel story. But I haven’t really thought about it before this class. Got to love critical thinking though. It will get you thinking…

Is it Still Good?

This is will be my last blog about Creation/Adam and Eve. Then I will get off my high horse.
God created the heavens and the earth in seven days. That is why we think we have seven days in a week right? Well after God created everything, he would always say, and it was good. I mean yes it was good. But what if it was bad. and God knowing it was going to be bad still said… Man this S*@! is good. He might of known that Adam and Eve were not all that he thought them to be, he still made them. I mean God knows everything it seems like it so I think he knew that things were not going to be good later down the road. What kind of story would it be if everything would have been all fine and dandy. Yea that’s right. A boring one. Nobody likes boring stories. And we decided in class that there are never boring stories. Just boring people. Well surly God didn’t want to be classified as boring. So he had to put a little drama into the story. After all a little drama never hurt anybody. But still even with the drama and him making the world, everything was still good. Was there anything bad that happened while he was being the “Master Creator”? I don’t think so. Then he gave Adam and Eve a simple instruction. Don’t eat this fruit. Well out of human nature curiosity gets the best of us. every person does it. and when it happened and God got mad and then S*@! Really started to hit the fan. Things started to fall apart then. Being banished from the garden, murder, yea all that bad stuff. Was it good then? Huh God is this stuff still good now?

Nuff Said

"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle.
I just wish He didn't trust me so much."

-Mother Teresa

Nuff said.

In Search of Something

I am now officially the Preistly writer now. Now I don’t know how good that makes me. And for my picture to be shown in class. I’m not going to lie and say it wasn’t cool, because it was. It was kind of nice for once for a rather big class to see some of the people who don’t always share their opinions out loud. And for everybody to see my picture was kind of cool. So that they know that I exists. But anyway I’m not here to talk about me. Well actually I am because this is my bog and I write what I want. Haha anyway.
I’m going to tell a story. Of me kind of being stupid but hopefully it all works out in the end. So the guy Steve Lopez was here to talk to the freshmen of this year. And I wanted to go, but I had my plate full dealing my sucky friend who is almost I would say a waste of air. Ugh she is not my cup of tea. But never the less I was dealing with her drama. And so I couldn’t make it to hear him speak, and I was mad because I loved the book and the movie. And here he is right here in Bozeman and I let him slip through my fingers. But oh well there is nothing I can do about it now… or is there. Well I have a copy of his book and I really wanted him to sign my book. So I used my skills of the internet a wonderful place by the way. and I managed to get my hands on his e mail address. So last night I e mailed him asking him if I sent him my book would he sign it for me. And if not where I can find a copy of his book that has already been signed. So I think I kind of crossed the line trying to get something that I don’t even know if it will happen or if he will even e mail me back. But with something like that you just gotta take a chance. Because one will never know unless they try. So I will keep you updated with what happens. And tomorrow I will blog about the bible. Haha I just had to share my story.

Door Slams Part 2

As I was in church the other day, we sang Psalm 51. And I was so excited because here is what we are kind of studying in Lit 240, and here it is right in front of my face. So my ceriousity got the best of me, so when I got home from church I looked up the whole Psalm. And to my surprise only two verses make up the song. Well I asked myself how can two verses make up a whole song. Why didn’t the song writer put the whole Psalm into the song. To me the song isn’t worth it if the whole thing isn’t in it. why isn’t the whole song a Psalm. Just the two verses that are most important. But isn’t the whole thing important? Here I feel God is again Slamming doors in our face, saying yes the bible has good stuff in it, but not all of it is great stuff, and I only want the good stuff published. Only the good stuff? How can only the good stuff make it into a song?
The whole Psalm basically says clean and rid me of my sins. How can God clean and rid us of our sins if all we know is the good stuff, and not the bad stuff. It just seems to me that God has cheeped us out of a deal. That if we don’t hide anything from God, he won’t hide anything from us. well news flash for Lisette. He has hidden the stuff that really means something. Its like he is giving us what we want to see, not what we need to see. And its up to us to go look for the goods, and when we do find them we are disappointed. And mad at how he just hid that stuff from me. That is how I felt when I really read and internalized the Psalm. (Door Slam). This is a beautiful Psalm I think, but wow there is a big door slam in it. it feels like the writer of this Psalm is trying to find some good in this life, and asking God to help them through whatever it may be they are going through. But no, God just Slams the door. Which sucks.
God is full of Door Slams throughout the bible. But so are we. When we find out something that we don’t wanna hear. We slam the door. Because it is the easiest thing to do at the moment. But then that door slam comes back to haunt us. telling us that the door slam was not necessary. But who knows at the time just like you God the door slam was necessary. (SLAM!) =D

Door Slams Part 1

Back to Blogging. Since I haven’t blogged in a while I feel that I should do it again. And get started again. Because I can say if it doesn’t happen today, it won’t happen for the rest of the semester. So here I sit with my music blasting, girls slamming their doors to their room because I am too loud. But quite frankly I don’t care, because this is my blog, and I’ll do what it takes to get it done.

So speaking of slamming doors in the face of the one who we are trying to rid ourselves of, I feel that God more than once slams the door in faces of people who have let him down. And it feels like he is saying, well you suck. There you go, Slam! I have just started reading The Slave. And so far it is treating me good. But God knows that his people are slaves and yet he doesn’t used his “Great Power” to save them from this sucky life they are having. And yet the people are so loyal to him, and he just sits here. And looks down on what is going on in his messed up world. How can people pray to God everyday asking for them to get them out of this sucky life, and it seems like Slam. The door shuts on the hope of ever getting out of the things that they are in. Now I know God has power, but not that power to bam free someone from slavery. But I mean come on. Why not give it a shot.

Bible Thumping and Answers

As I continue my journey of the bible I feel that this blog should be about me. I’m still very overwhelmed about this class and what we have to do for it. but it is soon going to leave and I know that. But for this one, its just me. Some of this stuff is kind of hard for me to take in, because I am what they consider a “bible thumper.” This past summer I worked as a councilor at a bible camp. So all day, every day what I did was “bible thumped.” I taught kids what little or none they knew about the bible and made it known to them. I showed them what the bible is all about. And it was the best summer of my life.
But currently I am feeling a little bit lost I guess you could say in my faith, and I find myself asking a lot of questions. I’m not doubting it in anyway, cause I know I’m here for God from God. But reading the bible the way I have been. I have to take a minute and look back at what I just wrote and I say to myself wow I can’t believe that I just said that about the bible. The book that I’ve based my life off of for 19 years. And I’m looking at it from a different perspective now. I’ve come to realize that God picks the people who ask why me? And he picks the low life’s. Why is that? To maybe give them a chance, and for them to prove that they are really capable of what He is asking that they do. I mean I would consider myself one of them. But is this class then a sign from God saying its ok for me question Him and question these writings? Or is it because I just had to take this class for my major and I’m going down a different road with it. but there has been a lot of things said in this class that I have written down and questioned. But that’s ok I think. Asking questions can get one far in life. I mean all the people in the bible whom God choose to do this big task asked themselves why me? Why me seems to go far, but then not far enough. Because when one searches the answer of that question they get short handed to them answers. But then they have to find and dig deeper for the answers that they want the most. Isn’t that the way it seems in life. The answers we want the most, we have to work so hard to get. What happens when they are reached? Do we try to come up with new questions, or be fine with the answers that we got? I guess it just depends on the person. It seemed like the people in the bible weren’t satisfied with the answers they were given. Basically God says just because. I choose you just because. Well what does just because do? Ah yea that’s right nothing. Its not really an answer. Just a statement. But then I come back to reality and realize that some of these things that are said are just that. Statements.
That’s what makes this class so overwhelming. All the work, and mostly the questions that I have for myself when I leave the class. But that’s ok I think. I’ll be ok and I will get through this class just fine. And I will continue to ask questions, cause then I will get answers. And answers I think are a very good thing!